Tired

I just cannot explain how I feel,

Words do injustice to the turmoil of my soul.

My thoughts running like gerbil on a wheel;

Leading me down the path of a forbidden road.

I can’t declare, defend or describe,

The utter emotional journey which now is.

The pain, the trauma, I can no longer hide,

Forcing me into a cave of darkness within.

Tired I am of talking, writing.

Lethargy and numbness masquerading as peace.

I have lost all strength from this mental fighting,

Doubtful of ever experiencing relief.